Frustration

I am getting rather frustrated at the recent turn of events.

Things have been rather positive on the photography front. Getting deals and loads of enquiries. Even had people smsing me saying they love my works. That is flattering but I really hope to get even better. It is no longer enough to just shoot for fun ...... it is becoming my career....... an obsession to live,eat and breathe the business....... I want to become the best there ever can be. I was a perfectionist when I was a kid,always striving to eliminate all the flaws in my work.That was untill I saw a comic strip that told me that was there was no such things as perfection. I was just happy to laze and chill out after that. What is there to fight for if you cannot be perfect.... my downfall that might have been.

I still hope to become the very best in my trade thou. I am so madly in love with photography that I treat it as an art form.It is the only thing I wake up in the morning looking forward to....... well that and my Dearest Aver of course.......

She is the love of my life. I really cannot see what I would be like if not for her. Despite my shortcomings and insecurities, she has been more than accomodating. Not to mention my mood swings....... My Venus..... my Goddess of Love........

Have just quited my day job recently to go full swing into Photography.The 1 month notice period is a killer. When you have no intention of advancing yourself, staying in a dead end job will be just for the pay-check but when you are on your way out towards something you have always wanted to do...... it gets extremely labourous. Every single minute becomes a chore. Time ticks by ever so slowly with your heart and mind in another place. Argghh... you would wish things can end so you can move on.

I want to be the best in the industry. I want to be the man Aver can depend on for the rest of her life. I want to shower her with care and concern, gifts and time.

Before her,I was lost...... she discovered my gifts and talents and made me believe in myself.

I am moving bravely forward and my dreams I should advance towards. In the meantime, the frustrations continues..... tick tock...tick tock....tick tock.......